terms of endearment

Here is my story as I recorded it with the MOTH radio show on Saturday:

My story is called Terms of Endearment.  It’s actually a collection of four separate short stories that I consolidated under the title Terms of Endearment about how we express love, what words we use, the behavior that endears us to other people. This is my valentine’s special to you. I am fascinated by both the terms and the endearment, and how varied and vibrant they can be.  These four stories are all about my family. They are all true stories.

Terms, rather than endearment

The first vignette focuses more on the terms than the endearment.  In the 1950s, my dad was in his 30s, a confirmed bachelor.  He had a few simple terms for selecting a wife.  She had to be a good driver.  She had to be a good card player. He had to like her family.  A classic bachelor’s list, right?  He did not anticipate how he would wilt under my mother’s gaze when they met for the first time.  So…when my dad married my mother, six months after they met: she didn’t drive; she didn’t play cards; he never met her family until after the wedding.  I’m so tickled that my dad knew when to toss the terms and embrace the endearment.  That’s a good life lesson for everyone—know when to throw out the rules.

Endearing traits

This next anecdote has to do with endearing traits involving items that couples exchange. In this case clothing, the same clothing.  My husband and I can exchange clothing.  I consider this an asset to our marriage and comes in particularly handy with outdoor gear and boots of all varieties—snow boots, barn boots, skates, ski boots, coveralls, extreme weather gear.  I am somewhat loath to tell you that we can actually wear the same pants…and apparently, I am not the only one. 

My husband tells a tale of visiting a sweetheart long ago whose parents were going out to dinner.  As the parents’ car disappeared down the drive, two individuals visited the upstairs.  When the parents returned unexpectedly, much earlier than anticipated, the two individuals quickly threw on their clothes and ran downstairs, pretending that they had never visited the upstairs.  The two individuals were striving for meaningful conversation with the parents, when my husband noticed that he was wearing her bluejeans…and she was wearing his…….Some internal panic ensued.  I do not know whether there was some embroidery or a few stray rhinestones involved, but I like this vision of reversed pants. It all ended well with the parents never the wiser, and is indeed an endearing episode.

Depth of endearment

I’m due for a story about myself.  It’s more about the depth of endearment.  As a builder and physics enthusiast, my husband is very focused on math.  When we met, he had an endearing habit of gauging someone’s interest in something based on a scale of 1 to 10.  One night early in our relationship, his question had to do with the depth of my endearment to him.  He asked, what was the extent of my feelings for him?  The question was quite unexpected. I floundered.  I asked him, coolly, what’s a 1?  He replied, unnoticeable.  I asked, what’s a 10?  He replied, unfathomable.  I experienced some momentary madness, because I answered a 5, playing it safe and all.  His reprisal came….later.

At this time in my life, I felt somewhat diction impaired. I was in a serious mumbling phase.  Getting words out clearly seemed difficult.  On the night when I got up the nerve to say, I think I’m falling in love with you…he said, what? (Knowing clearly what I had said).  I felt a little panicked.  So, I said it again, more clearly.  I think I’m falling in love with you….He said, what did you say?  A third time, I said these words emphatically.  Look, I think I’m falling in love with you! (The warm, tender tone diminished at this point).  He said…yeah, I know, I heard you the first time.  Payback was his, and it was sweet.

Perceptive endearment perspective

Last, is a story from a mother’s perspective.  As a mother, I’ve learned that young children can express their endearment in incredibly perceptive ways.  On a mother’s day when my daughter was not quite four years old, we were playing a word game as we curled up for bed.  We were listing all the ways we loved each other. More than all the Os in the cereal box.  More than all the cherry blossoms on the tree.  More than all the waves on the pond.  More than all the stars in the milky way.

Then, I said, I love you like an elephant, because an elephant never forgets and I will never forget my love for you. She thought about this idea for a long while, and asked whether other animals have good memories.  Our cats?  The chickens? What about the goldfish?  Then, she turned to me and said, mama, I love you like a mother.  I was awestruck.  This was the most powerful love force she could think of, the love of a parent.  Forget the elephant! That kind of love lasts a lifetime, it is unshakable, enduring, and can bring you to your knees at the same time.  And a four year old already knows that.  That’s a life lesson from someone so small…and wise.

Ending

So, what’s my message?  If you feel love in your heart, express it, let those words fly.  It’s empowering, it’s healing, it’s fun, it’s even funny sometimes, as hopefully my stories illustrated.  Of course, if you say them to me, I might say live them live on stage, but I’ll beg your forgiveness afterwards.  What are your terms of endearment, and how can you improve them? Seriously, I think expressing love is one of the greatest gifts we have to give and receive in life.  That’s my secret valentine’s message to all of you.

now we are six

Quilt by Grandma Edith. Knitwear by Tante Hanne made originally for mama.

When I was One, I had just begun.

First day walking.

When I was Two, I was nearly new.

When I was Three, I was hardly Me.

When I was Four, I was not much more.

When I was Five, I was just alive.

But now I am Six, I'm as clever as clever.

So I think I'll be six now for ever and ever.

by A.A. Milne

first lost tooth

Thursday July 8, 2010 6:50pm: my daughter lost her first tooth.

There’s a tiny pink gap on the bottom of my child’s smile today.  She was eating oats while sitting on a big easy chair downstairs trying to cool down in the 92ْ F heatwave.  She did a little victory dance downstairs and invited us to come down and see the surprise.

She selected an altoids tin as her toothbox.  Curiously strong mints, except that these had been chocolate covered altoids, if you can believe it. A curiously chocolatey brown and golden tin.  We cut some fabric—green cotton with pink and purple butterflies—to line the tin and she placed her precious ivory inside.  On top were silver and gold wedding bell and Christmas stickers.  What a lucky tooth fairy!

Uncharacteristically, she woke up at 5am and reached under the pillow.  Inside the box was a golden coin, a Sacajawea dollar.  She thought maybe the woman on the coin was a fairy queen with a fairy baby on her back who knew the tooth fairy.  Her dad said it was a native American fairy.  It’s a special story since her great-great-great grandmother was a full-blood Apache who married a missionary in the 1800s.  A very special father-daughter connection.

It’s curious how new experiences spark old memories.  At breakfast today, my husband recalled that when he lost his first tooth, he found an Indian head nickel under his pillow.  That’s another precious father-daughter connection.

thankfulness on december 25

(at last moved from the paper archive to digital archive...)

Thankful for talent.  How precious to watch our five-year-old pull the wrappers from a home-felled white pine dollhouse.  Four stories high with slides for stairs, horse stables down below and an equipment shed.  Santa’s elves really showed their talent by building just what she wanted.  I wondered how I could get those elves to replace our stairs with slides.

Thankful for neighbors.  Our artist neighbor Aurora visited us for Christmas breakfast and brought us coffee cake and a tin brimming with home-grown garlic.  We sipped champagne, dipped home-baked Stollen in warm cups of coffee and admired ancient German ornaments on the tree.

Thankful for electricity.  It’s true that we lost electricity for an hour and a half, right in the middle of cooking Christmas dinner.  Our Yankee ingenuity spurred us to crank the wood stove a little higher and pull everything out of the oven and onto the wood stove under cover.  By the time dinner rolled around, we had lights to see what we were eating and everything tasted divine.

Thankful for music.  A couple friends and family joined us for dinner and brought their guitars.  We had fun nibbling, playing guitar, singing songs, trying to remember other songs, and dressing up in wrapping paper.

At the end of the day, I felt so grateful for all these wonderful gifts.  

I thought to post these two holiday remembrances after recently finding some Thanksgiving and Christmas stories I wrote about visits with our family friends the O'Grady's in the mid-1970s. 

big easy thanksgiving

(at last moved from the paper archive to digital archive….)

We spent another glorious Thanksgiving in New Orleans 2009 thanks to the tremendous generosity of our friends G and J on their fifth wedding anniversary.  Sample the flavor of our stay in this historic city from these snapshots.

(photo by Lajos)

The races.  The racetrack opens on Thanksgiving, so it’s a special day to go to the races.  We watched the horses promenade just before each race.  My small daughter was enthralled with the lively horses and colorful silks of the jockeys.  A small crowd gathered around her to bet on which horses she thought would win.  It was quite amusing when, after one of her horses lost, a dismayed gambler said anxiously to the assembled group, “Her horse lost, what does it mean?”

Thanksgiving feast.  A superb dinner was consumed at the Commander's Palace.  I had smoked goose and foie gras gumbo, shrimp and mirliton stuffing with redfish, bourbon pecan pie, and finished with chicory coffee.  Tasted some P&J oyster dressing, shrimp and tasso henican, and creole bread pudding souffle too.  It's hard to miss turkey and gravy with those flavors on the table!  We watched the sun start to set from our second-floor corner window overlooking the marvelous gardens at the Palace.

Aboard the paddle-steamer Natchez on the Mississippi R.

Paddleboat on the Mississippi. I confess that I really, really like taking the paddleboat Natchez down the Mississippa River.  Apparently, it’s the only true steam-operated paddleboat in North America.  Nice to glide by the two-mile long wharf, allegedly the longest dock in the world, and weave through freighters with their bright flags from all over the world.  The brass engine room is an engineer’s delight.  You can see just how low the ninth ward is and imagine how Hurricane Katrina waters gathered there.  The >90ْْ  curve in the river by Algiers Point is even more impressive from the water than watching from the levee!

Favorite carnival dress at the Louisiana State Museum!

Dress to the nines.  A supreme highlight for my daughter was visiting the Louisiana State Museum where many displays celebrate the parading that happens in the French Quarter.  Her eyes got wider and wider as she entered each successive room with all the sequined and feathered costumes.  I kept losing her until I figured out which were her favorite dresses.

Racetrack enthusiasts! (Lajos)

Good Samaritan.  On an early morning walk along the levee, I was turning around when a bicyclist next to me fell off his bike and smacked his head hard.  I thought he’d had a stroke as I dragged him and his bike off the trolley tracks.  I was doubly concerned when he said he was going to continue riding seven more miles…and he was an orthopedic surgeon.  I convinced him to call his family and waited with him 1.5 hours, all the while he was on the verge of leaving, all the while getting panhandled.  Finally, he realized he had a fractured femur, but forgot he hit his head.  I pointed out the gouges in his bike helmet… goodness gracious.

día de los muertos in vermont

A baton was passed at our house yesterday. After fifteen years of a creative Halloween party http://micabob.blogspot.com/2008/11/picasso-pumpkins-and-pop-quiz.html we started a new annual tradition—a Día de los Muertos party. This Mexican celebration combines Aztec and Mayan traditions honoring the departed with Catholic celebrations of All Saints Day and All Souls Day http://micabob.blogspot.com/2008/11/da-de-los-muertos.html.

The event blends remembrance with some irreverence. We prepared an ofrenda with framed photos of ancestors, smiling skeleton figurines called calacas, candles, and even authentic papel picado, thanks to the generosity of a worldly neighbor. My daughter and I shaped painted cardboard boxes into tributes to favorite pets and animals. She adorned hers with faux pearl earrings and three sparkly toothbrushes. Friends brought their own contributions. I loved hearing and telling stories about hats worn by missed family members, meditation stones they held, a red sox fan, an old whaler’s golden earring, a lost cat, a pie tin, a horse race, a favorite breakfast. It was lovely, and fun. Mariachi music played in the background.  Kids colored skull masks.

We feasted well. Rolled black bean, beef and chipotle enchiladas. Layered corn enchiladas with salsa verde. Spicy Spanish rice. Southwest chicken and lime soup. Outdoors we had a brick oven cranking so people could roll dough into skull shapes and bake it under the stars. The hot bread looked so tasty, I think everyone got slightly burned fingers.

This morning after cleaning up, I sat on the sunny porch outside drinking a hot cup and savoring the previous evening.   It was nearly 60 degrees F.  As my husband took apart the brick oven, a gentle breeze blew traces of ashes over my bathrobe.  I looked down at the ashes and thought that was a nice ending to our Vermont celebration.

bob marley and mary poppins

Today’s title seems an unlikely convergence of musical icons. Yet, this peculiar combination proved a recipe for recovery as my family fell like dominoes to influenza. Music and movies surely helped five days of severe fatigue, inertia, et al pass more quickly. If you thought a spoonful of medicine helps the medicine go down was the main attraction, you are wrong! Instead it was stir it up, little darlin’.

I often subscribe to naturopathy, so we had a mélange of flavors and concoctions to consume. Licorice tasting immune glycerite and tart tasting cough glycerite, freshly brewed by my naturopath, accompanied thousands of IUs of vitamin D to combat the virus. The trick was to get a small child to swallow these healing elements. That’s where the little medicine cups were handy. I have some sweet, tiny stoneware mugs. Add a little ginger ale and maple syrup to the herbs, and sing together stir it up, little darlin’! Worked every time.

I’m sure some of you quietly shuddering readers pictured this practice as something more like brimstone and treacle, a song by the anti-nanny from the Broadway version of Mary Poppins. It was a great ritual, really! Dessert was ultra-fragrant chicken soup delivered to the porch by a dear neighbor and pictured above along with the other accoutrements. After couch sitting and humming along through Mary Poppins many times, Bob Marley got us moving vertically. A reggae beat is truly the rhythm of influenza when you need to stand up and do something.  Let’s get together and feel alright!